moving in reverse.

I am friggin PISSED OFF, thanks to the family. I've been having nothing but mood swings lately. One moment, I may be frowning; the next, I am laughing hysterically. I don't know the cause of these mood swings. Probably because of that thing that I did Wednesday night.

I am not going to tell you, my readers. Find out yourself. I am not annoyed of the mood swings, because they are MINE. But it annoys other people. Grr.

Wednesday afternoon, Zimah treated to a box of pizza. Yay! Thankies, dear. Tiqah's head was spinning (figuratively), and Amal's shoulder was too far away for her to lie on, so I offered mine. That's just as far as I am going to tell.

Then Thursday. First period was GP. No teacher til Monday. So Daus taught me how to play a nursery rhyme on the guitar. I was supposed to complete my Bio and Maths assignment, but this interests me more. And I was supposed to go to the class adjacent to mine, to finish off the Bio assignment with Zimah, but I avoided it. Go figure.

Bio. Yawn. Maths. No Fuzah, she went to Singapore. So I sat on the side that was dominated by the XY chromosome. Again, avoiding a person. Then, break! Returned the Belalong form to Ck. Fatimah, along with $109. I can't wait.

Then CCA. I was supposed to join Choir Club, but then I found out ada an uber-annoying junior, so I pulled out and registered my name for Gulintangan Club. Sarcastic yaay. There were a lot of 'interested' Form 3's in the Gulintangan Club. We'll see about the extent of their interest. There was one guy that had a keen sense for gendang playing, and one girl that joined the Gulintangan under the Youth Centre. Envy! Oh, also. There was the adik of the person whom I tried to avoid. Ironic, much. Nay, karmic, much.

Then Chem class. Before that, Zimah pestered me about the thing the night before. Malas tah ku kan gitau! Blablabla. I am tired. Atu saja.

I JUST WANT TO SAY I AM TIRED. AND MOODY. SO FUCK OFF.

books and byes.

Today was AWESOME. Okay, that word is overused this time around. Anyway..

Saturday! Ada P.E.! Wheee. I get to wear my P.E. attire, but I would have worn it today regardless of having P.E. Cause karang ada kids' orientation! Yaay. Midgets! Hahahaha.

In 'homeroom', I sat with Heirna, Dijah, Iqbal and Azim. I returned the Doctor Who s4 box set to Heirna. Sekali rupanya ada 1 disc nada. Hahah I found it sudah, esok tah ku balikkan. Oh! Heirna and I are both the facilitators for the group Mercury masa the orientation, with Nisah (form 4). Sekali Heirna told me that our group got half a question wrong, and with 6 ribbons (I think), which is worth 5 points each, puts us in 2nd place! Wooo yeahhh.

Then off to class -- Chem. Kami belajar pasal moles. Avogadro's number. Isotopes. Siuk lah. Enjoyable.

Then 3rd - 5th period: P.E.! Whee. GP classes of PU1C has P.E. every Saturday. Today, just ice-breaking. We put our name, nickname, class, and favourite sport/s (if any) on a piece of paper, then Ck. Masnor shuffles all and distributes it. The person has to introduce who he got on paper in front of everyone. Creative, I like.

BREAK! Zimah minta ajar completing the square. Payah jua mengajar ani ah. Iatah kan jadi teacher ni, Faizan? I hope not. Something in medicine, please. Blablabla.

Biology. Still with the eyepiece graticule and the stage micrometer, scaling the former to the latter according to magnifications x4, x10 and x40. I signed up for the Belalong trip, but I didn't tell my parents.

Next! Maths, pure. We got booooks! Whee. Barat pulang. Then Fuzah and I cerita cerita. Kilah texted me, asking me to wait for her at the canteen, then we go to Audi together.

And I did. My bag baraaat. Hahaha. I wore my 'I LOVE PORN' badge halfway to the Audi. Too explicit for the kids to see. Then sembahyang. Siring si Syazni lagi. Hahaha. That dude is cracked.

Then back to the Audi. Oh, the programme was to have the closing ceremony before 3.30, so that the kids can get their books after. Sekali tukar. The closing ceremony pukul 4-ish. At the Audi, the kids got a talk by the Library staff. During that, Emah, Raihan, Heirna and I wrote 'I love *insert name' on a pink heart-shaped Post-It. I had 'I love Kaka Emah' and 'I love Kaka Tiqah' at first, then I added 'I love Kaka Sasni' (hahahaha). I put them at them at the back of my nametag.

We were put in our groups, then two groups were punished for not singing the school song loudly enough. Sekali kana suruh buat the Banana Dance! I like! It goes:
'All bananas unite!
Peel, banana! Peel, peel, banana!
Shake, banana! Shake, shake, banana!
Chop, banana! Chop, chop, banana!
Fry, banana! Fry, fry, banana!
Nah! Goreng pisaaang!!'
That was fun. I stood next to my fellow bananas, Tiqah and Syazni. Hahahah panaaat.

Then we played the Shooting Game! Whee. It's kinda like Tag, You're It!, tapi much funner. Say my group wants to 'shoot' Supernova, so we say 'Mercury! Mercury! Mercury!' while pointing to our group, then point to and say 'Supernova!'. You have to be quick and everyone must point. In the end, Aurora and Mercury were co-champs. Wheee. Aurora kan? Si Danial Aizat punya group wah. Hahaha.

Next game is Chinese Whisper. Groups form a line, and the person at the back is given a sentence to memorise, then whisper that sentence to the person in front of him/her, and so forth. The sentence was 'There is no housing shortage in Lincoln - just a rumour that is put about by people who have nowhere to live'. My group okay. Hee. Shar's group wrote 'There is no use for shark teeth in Lincoln..' hahahaha.

Then, break. Sembahyang. Ck. Mahmud nada, so dorang suruh aku jadi Imam. Uhhh, bah. Oh, everyone was given a piece of paper to write down ANYTHING we like about anything related to MS, the orientation or ...I don't think my group ada buat. Kali.. Then after sembahyang, the closing ceremony. By this time, kaki ku NGALIH. Hahah. National Anthem, School Song, Principal's speech in MIB (Melayu Inggeris Bercampur). Then Mirza's speech on behalf of the rest, then Azizil reciting the Ikrar Penuntut. Hahah. Nyaman si Jazmi ketawa, atas stage lagi tu. Panat.

Then the results of the groups! Third place -- Asteroids! (kan?) Halawati's group. Awethumm. They got around 98 points.
Second place -- Mercury! Wheee. With 107.5 points! The numbers don't lie. Congrats, my kids.
First place -- Jupiter! Chien Yee's group. Congrats.
Hahah, kami top 3, Kilah! Your Supernova girls can't beat my Mercury clan. Lapas the kids took their bags, Heirna and I distributed to our group (yes, Nisah too) Toggi, Daim and Crunchies. Hahaha, your welcome.

Then, facilitators formed a curve on stage, then ALL the kids salam-ed us. Awww. I didn't tear up though. I'm just going to miss the Orientation. :']

That'll be all, folks. See you, ciao.

pidge

orientation Day 2.

Hello! Hahah, I have been selected to be one of the facilitators for the Year 7 (MB1) orientation. Wheee. What I have always wanted. The groups for the orientation were named after things in space. I don't remember all, but the names are Aurora, Eclipse, Sun, Big Bang, Black Hole, Neptune, Saturn, Pluto, Ceres, Mars, Mercury, Earth, Venus. The others I don't remember at the moment, cheers.

I was assigned to be the facilitator of Mars, with Shar and Lawrence. But Heirna requested for me, so I was transferred to Mercury. With Heirna and Nisah (form4). I took Elisha's place in Mercury. Hahaha. Mercury consists of 8 loud-mouth boys and 11 shy girls.

Before Orientation began, we were each given a tag, to write our name down. Elisha and I were stumped. What should we put as our monikers? He wrote down 'Abang Lisha' and I wrote down 'Abang Pai'. Then we changed. He changed to 'Abang Eli' -- pronounced ee-LAI, but EL-lee was okay -- and I changed to 'Abang Uchai'. Hahahahaha. Jauh jua tu, Faizan to Uchai. Everyone was like, kenapa tia Uchai atu? Hahahaha. Cool kaliah that name. (;

So of to Mercury I went. Damiiiit suara dorang. Macam badan dorang, hahaha. For the guys pulang saja tu. The girls basar sudah.

I wanna talk about Dae Too saja. We went to pray first. Di Asrama Puteri. Then after that ke Audi, where they lined according to their class. Ada talk by the HEP, i.e. Ck. Haiseh and Ck. Hayatul Ahlam. While that was going on, Din told me to scatter about, cause next in the programme was Missing Tags. Malas ku gitau cemana the game, ngalih ku.

After that, we're put in our groups to distribute the kids' tags. And to continue the game where each group had to sing the School Song. Aku mau my group to sing again! Tapi inda kana bagi chance. Oh, well.

After thaaat, Shooting Game! Hehehe, siuuuuk. (; alum abis, around 4 groups kana eliminate. I want Mercury to win! After thaaat, break and sembahyang.

After sembahyang, Treasure Hunt! It was fun, we got about 6 ribbons for extra points. Hee. In the end, kami -- especially me and Nisah -- were exhausted! Ngaliihh. At home, there was a clear contrast: my calves were pale, and my feet were red. Ngalih yo. Bah atu saja, saja kan mengupdate.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DK. NURHANISAH! <33
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAZINAH! <3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NYRA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD NAJWAN.

That's all, dear readers. ciao.

pidge

practised alternatives

I had a post for yesterday. I was using my phone to type it all down, but the effing Opera Mini closed before I had the chance to publish the post. So, it's gone. Ergh.

I'll just tell some of the important points.
- It is the first day of school for the PU1
- I was dragged by Wina into the Administration to recite the prayers on the PA System
- To kickstart the new term, we were given 6 lectures
- My name is in the MP nominees list
- Chem class was intimidating, because Mr. Ravoof was
- GP was cancelled, because Rockwell got transferred
- There was a Hadrah meeting, held by yours truly, the Prez
- Izzah told me about France, and the hot guys she and Aziara ogled over
- Kids were enrolled in MS as Year 7 students
- I watched One Tree Hill s5 last night, hahaha

What else?

Oh! Haha saving the best for last, Izzah gave me an 'I LOVE PORN' badge from France. Hahah, I like! Okay. That's all, I guess. Ciao.

pidge

pretty awful person

And I am going to write about Sunday, the fourth day of the new year.

I slept late Sunday morning, and woke up early. I slept at 1.30 am, woke up for the dawn prayers at 5.30, slept again, and woke up a few minutes before 10. Showered, went down and ate breakfast. Did my chores, then went up and watched Mulan. Hahahaha.

Mum told me that I will be going with my dad to the neighbours. There's a wedding. Though I don't know her, but there's free food! Hahaha. So I went. So many strangers. :s Though there's one guy whose face looks familiar.

Then there's this guy who sat next to me when there was plenty other seats, especially with who I assume is his dad. So make your move, hot stuff. Hahahaha. I mean to sound gay hn this blog. But bear in mine, I am not.

From the moment I sat down til I went back, I went online, chatting with Madie. I shall not disclose what we talked about. Hahahah.

Went home, Dad went out, left money to pay for the Indian who is going to mow the grass, and I went offline and watched a documentary on the '08 Olympics.

Oh, my sisters and Mum went out to buy some stuff, and they went back around 5.30, around the time I was going to shower. Hahah between the time Dad went and Mum came, Abg. Adi (real name, Halirudin) came and gave us the aqiqah for his daughter, Khayra Zahra. And Abg. Ucai (real name, Musa) came to borrow my brother's stupor (sp?).

The girls of the family (excluding Ejah, cause she's in Cardiff, hahaha) bought a new DVD player. Awesome! Now I can watch the One Tree Hill season 5 Nana bought on New Year's Eve. Haha, lambat aku ah. And Mum wanted to buy Nana a Dell laptop, like the one Ejah has.

So after dinner, we set up the DVD player, I prayed Maghrib, changed into Abg's brown shirt. Hahah then I blogged. At The Mall, I saw Chok and Mr. Sia. And one too many skinny jeans. I bought a memory card for this phone, at last.

Then went home, chatted for awhile -- but damn the connection -- and then slept.

Today, Monday, marks a new school term. And mine is tomorrow. Wheee, school! Oh, yeah. Last night, I chatted with Madie (again), Muizz (again), Nina and Nina Iskandar. Hahaha, I know, I am surprised of the last, too. But, yeah.

Now I'm watching One Tree Hill. Gonna watch it now. See you, my readers. Ciao.

pidge

catch and release.

as in my previous blog, the title for my posts will be random phrases that are related to the post, or otherwise. ;]

I'll start with yesterday.

There were no parents in the house the minute I woke up. WOOHOO. Hahaha. Mum was at work, Dad was at the office. I don't know why he's there, 'cause he's on mandatory leave that will be followed by his pension. *sarcastic tone* yaaay.

So left at home were my older sister, Nana; my younger sister, Farah; my lazy brother, Abang, and; I. Haha. Nana offered to bring Farah and I out, to (finally) watch Twilight. Our ride was her 2-month-shy-of-having-an-anniversary boyfriend, Amin. Who so happens to be the cousin of my friend-slash-wife, Amal. Hahaha.

And we went out. The show was at 3, and we left the house at 2.30. Haha we would've made it if Amin had been driving at 120 km/h (Macam banar aku ah!). So we left. Amin's Honda Jazz had a damaged backside, pertaining to the accident almost a month ago. So kami pakai his old car. Cool jua lah, ada sound system. Tapi I put on my headphones, dangar lagu dikir. Ahahaha.

We arrived at The Mall at around 2.58. Kami naik to take the tickets, tapi there was this fuckingly slow group, consisting of ugly-dyed-hair women and two pierced-ear men. A combo of my dislikes, nice. I was on the verge of blowing up, tapi I kept my cool. Hahaha.

So we were late for the show, around 15 minutes into it, I guess. Oh, yeah. Nana told me to buy 2 tickets first, and she would buy the other 2 later. But stupid me bought 4. Oops. So, I give Twilight an 8.5. Hahah. Syukur tah. Si Bella hot. Edward's "father" -- or whoever he was -- pun hot. And James. Hahaha.

I like the storyline. Maybe I'll read the books, to kill some time. MAYBE. After the movie, following routine, I went to the toilet. Haha, nothing happened. Just a loong pee. Then outside, I met Tiqah, my friend-come-girlfriend. We have this thing, that if we meet each other, we say 'I love you the most!'. Lame, is it? I think it's sweet. Tapi macam an 'Iloveyou' slut, as in HIMYM. Hahaha. When we met in front of West Street Cafe, I met her cousins. Sekali I held her hands in mine, and the cousin was like 'is he your boyfriend?'. In theory, I am. Hahaha awu saja tiaa. I think Sir Zulfaisal, our Physics teacher, saw us holding hands, as did my sisters and Amin.

Then off to my dad, then went home. Watched Supernatural arah Astro Fiesta channel 809. The episode was Fresh Blood (I have it in my laptop), and it's about vampires. -.-" what, is it Vampire Day on Screen or something?

From The Mall, to Hua Ho (for some grocery shopping) to home, I kept on texting Rhy and Hafiy. No offense to them, but Rhy is a bit pretentious, and Hafiy is too much of a casanova, not in a good way. Cause I saw Hafiy and Deb at the Foodcourt. Blablabla. I won't divulge you with the details.

At home, I went online, and chatted with Zaki SOAS (met him at BASE Camp), Naj (one of my bestfriend), Nina (another bestfriend), Ameer (my boyfriend, HAHAHA nadadeh), Muizz SOAS (another BASE camper), Madie SOAS (BASE jua) and Khaliq SOAS (from BGIC). Group chatting with Muizz, Madie and Khaliq, panaaaaat. Hahahah. Siuk lah, I made new friends. Aku inda mau jadi loner, macam si Fuzah. HAHAHA.

Oh, yeah. I saw Khairini jua. And friends. She gave me my lost guitar pick. Wheee. Hahaha. I slept late, TADI PAGI. Hahaha. And now credit ku sikit. :s

Imma post my encounters today, in a new post. Awkay? Love you, my readers. Ciao.

pidge

Letto - Sandaran Hati

Yakinkah ku berdiri
Di hampar tanpa tepi
Boleh kah aku mendengar-Mu

Terkubur dalam emosi
Tanpa bisa bersembunyi
Aku dan nafasku
Merindukan-Mu

Terpuruk ku disini
Teraniaya sepi
Dan ku tahu pasti Kau menemani

Dalam hidupku
Kesendirianku

Teringat, ku teringat
Pada janji-Mu ku terikat
Hanya sekejap ku berdiri
Ku lakukan sepenuh hati

Peduli, ku peduli
Siang dan malam yang berganti
Sedihku ini tak ada erti
Jika Kau-lah sandaran hati
Kau-lah sandaran hati

Inikah yang Kau mahu
Benarkah ini jalan-Mu
Hanyalah Engkau yang ku tuju

Pegang erat tanganku
Bimbing langkah kakiku
Aku hilang arah tanpa hadir-Mu

Dalam gelapnya
Malam hariku

Teringat, ku teringat
Pada janji-Mu ku terikat
Hanya sekejap ku berdiri
Ku lakukan sepenuh hati

Peduli, ku peduli
Siang dan malam yang berganti
Sedihku ini tak ada erti
Jika Kau-lah sandaran hati

Kau-lah sandaran hati
Sandaran hati


This is one song I will never get tired of hearing. Time after time, I still have tears running down my cheeks. Thanks to Hanif for letting me borrow his PSP in 2006. (:

09, meet faizan.

090101

Hello, 2009. It's so nice to meet you. I feel sad about 2008 leaving me, but I'm sure you will be as awesome as '08, if not more.

Well, I should introduce myself, shouldn't I?

I am tall, as most people would say. Thinner than a panda, fatter than a stickman. I wear specs, and hopes for a prettier smile. I have buck teeth that could make Bugs Bunny proud, and sharp incisors that could make Bram Stoker proud.

I am 16, coming 17. I have thin wrists from excessive, uh, work. I have long, white legs, and they have minimal hair.

I laugh a lot, but I get cranky sometimes. I hold grudges so people can see the better side of me. I work hard to achieve what I want, but I can be lazy at times. I hope to get good grades for my O's, so I can get a scholarship and take Further Mathematics.

Mathematics is my passion. I like to fiddle around with numbers, as do I with the guitar, keyboard and the gulintangan. I hope to be better at the latter.

I am good at guessing most of the times. Put your hand in a packet of Skittles or M&M's, and I can tell you the colour of the candy you picked out, provided I know what colours are present. A random song sometimes pops into my head, and 10 minutes later I hear that song on air.

I am single. The last thing I am is taken. Though two of my close friends claim that I am their husband. A lot of my friends are female, but I do have male friends, mostly from BASE Camp. I know a lot of people, and vice versa. I am "everyone's best friend", to quote a friend. Knowing that many people is hard, because I only have too small a memory to remember their names, but I try my best to.

I don't get updated on the latest song, TV shows, movies, gossip, fashion, or any of that superficial crap Western culture has got us addicted to. But I act like I do. I watch How I Met Your Mother, Big Bang Theory, Chuck and Supernatural, to name a few.

I get racist sometimes. I get a good look at someone and decide if I should like them or not, sometimes. I try to be friendly to people who aren't judgemental. Lame jokes works, so yeah.

A friend says I'm a "smartass", but I don't see any awards or medals to prove, therefore the comment is dismissed. I try to solve a problem, if not, I just run away from it. Simple.

I am severely active in competitions. This year alone I am involved in 6 competitions and 1 conference, 3 of which clashed in a week, and 1 of which clashed with my Biology written papers.

I try not to hate people, except those who deserve it. One example are the wolves at school. Another are biased people. And slave drivers.

I hope that sufficed to allow you to picture me, dear '09. What about you? Describe yourself. No? Oh, well. I'll just have to wait 364 days. See you.

pidge.